God, it's been so long since I came here for giving trashes here. So, first, I'll tell you what happened in 2012.\
1. January: This month was my first month for us. Nothing special happened. Just school days.
2. February: Our second month. Well, I started this month with some school program called "LIVE IN", what was it? So, on this program I have to live at the some village in Central Java, it was so damn cold there, but many experience happened, I need to survive with poor family, with no bathroom in their house. On 11th, this day was Greg's birthday, I gave him a gift. I know he likes it.
3. March: Our third month. I came to Greg's home for the first time. I met his parents. We had dinner together. It's a good beginning, I thought. Till I know Greg didn't talk to me for 9 days. I didn't have any idea what's going on with his head. I'd been crying for 5 days then I realized it didn't make any sense. Then he called me back. And everything's okay. Well, may be he still doesn't get how hurt it was. But I tried to forget it.
4. April: Our fourth month. I was busy with this magazine. My dad didn't have to go to do his job anymore. This month I and Greg went to see Motor Gedhe exhibition.
5. May: Our fifth month. Well, it happened again. Greg didn't talk to me for almost 3 weeks. Why? he gave surprised for my birthday. I hate it actually. Really.
6. June: Our sixth month. This month was finale examination. Good mark. I went to Mitsommerfest where Aditya Sofyan and Endah n Resa sang along. But, Greg wasn't with me. He's one of this event committee. Greg went to Bali for Taek wond do competition about for a week.
7. July: Our seventh month. Everything look good this month. But it was empty and grey.
8. August: Our eight month. Holy ghost. I almost break up with him. What happened? He had special girl friend, he just knew it. And I cried for everytime I reading their conversation on twitter. But, I forgave him and we survived. I SURVIVED WITH THIS FUCKING PAIN. Sometime, I still cry if I remember this time.
9. September: Our ninth month. Empty. I was lost with this feeling. I still loved him, but in another side, I was fucking tired with this relation. Everything was shit. We don't talk. I tried to, but he didn't talk back.
10. October: Our tenth month. I text him on our anniversary. He didn't replied. I heard some news about him and a slut who he met in mittsommerfest. Well, thought it's the end. I couldn't hold on anymore. I gave up. He broke with me. And I was just fine, well I tried to act that I was fine.
11. November: There's no anniv anymore. No chat for a week until I met him, once again. He asked me to go out again. I told myself THIS IS SO MUCH EASIER FOR ME TO FALL FOR HIM AGAIN. And then, I realized I still love Greg.
12. December: Examination. He said he still loved me. He feel sorry for breaking up with me. But I still thought and watched if he really meant it. At least, I said yes. We get back together.
So, these are. What a year. Breaking up for 2 months and then get back again. Still can feel this pain. But tried harder to forget. I love him, more than I did before. and I wish he does, too.
WELCOME 2013. Please, will you be my year? :)
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